My niece got some sneakers that light up for Christmas. Her grandmother was admiring them and said something like, "I bet you can't wait to wear those to school." And my niece said she can't wear them to school because if there's a shooter and she needs to hide, they would give her away. She is 7, y'all. SEVEN. And this is what she needs to think about. Christmas in America.

My gifts have been picking up lately, where I'll dream something and then it happens. I had the most terrible dream last night, where I was consciously and willingly murdering my friends. Like, straight up slashing and stabbing them with a knife. I was disturbed all freaking day, trying to figure out why the hell I would dream something so terrible. Tonight, I decided to catch up on some of my shows - I started a new job three months ago and haven't had any time until now. I picked up where I left off on American Horror Stories. And wouldn't you know, the episode is about a girl murdering her friends.

Just had that thing where I overreact to something DH said because of resentment I've held onto due to unresolved issues. The thing is it's not my fault these issues are unresolved. I'm very clear about what things bother me. It's just that after 25 years of explaining the same things over and over and over when does he take responsibility? Now he's off sulking and here's my prediction- either we're going to spend the weekend in uncomfortable silence until this blows over or I'm going to end up apologizing to him like I used to. Probably option 1 because he still doesn't know how to communicate and I'm no longer apologizing for things that aren't my fault. He said it "wasn't his intention to upset me." I told him to google "intent vs impact" because I'm not explaining basic shit to him and the rest of America has known the difference for at least a decade now. Fuck this.

If you're still republican, even one of those hold out "small government fiscal responsibility" people voting repuke after this, you're a psychopath. 10 years old, raped and people are still saying she should've been forced to have a baby. Americans have no more of a democracy than the Saudis do...American caliphate. Vile, sick fucking psychopaths.

I agree so much. I love my husband, I really do. But he mansplains to me all the time. He shoots down my ideas if he thinks he'll have to help me (in other words if he thinks I can't do it without his help, he shoots it down) because he doesn't want to help. He takes advantage of me by never helping with housework. He's a typical American straight white man. And I am 100% serious when I say that I don't think I could find a better one. And my husband is shit. He really is, as far as treating me like an equal. He sucks at it, and he's one of (what I consider) the GOOD ones. They're ALL shit. Every single one of them. It's just what level of shit?

I'm so over the idiots who want to arm teachers. When cops (the supposed good guys with guns), in full riot gear, don't have the balls to face someone with an AR rifle, wtf makes you think a teacher should do it??? So many Americans are so incredibly stupid. I'm ready to leave this country.

What I found was that I got refused treatment when I had insurance, but without insurance the doctors will treat me. Way back when, I was refused an MRI because my portion was $3600.00 and I had to pay half up front. That was WITH insurance. I never got the MRI, I didn't have $1800.00. Without insurance, they treat me and just bill me. Also without insurance I can apply for discounts and the sliding fee scale. My appendix operation got discounted due to my income. I'll still be sending them money for years, but the discount was 7K. So that's SOMETHING. But yeah we're all fucked. I wish my ancestors had stayed in Europe. Go to America, they said. Things are better there, they said.

I'm almost 50 too. I don't have insurance to cover any of the normal testing that women my age get. I figure since I don't have the means to detect things, I sure as hell won't have the means to fight anything that gets detected. So I don't stress over it. I do self breast exams, but that's it. I figure if I get really REALLY sick, it's just my time to go. I mean, I live in America, so it's normal here to die due to lack of funds. I don't WANT to die of cancer, but I have no illusions of being able to afford to fight it if I do get it.

I will not give to a go fund me to a trumper! Bitch and scream everyday that people don’t ever do for themselves and all they want are handouts and are lazy and the list goes on. But when there’s a car repair needed, or a covid funeral to pay for after being anti maskers and anti vaxxers, a go fund me gets set up asking for a handout for help with these bills. Nope. Won’t do it. Should have got your life in order like the rest of us hard working, tax paying Americans as you say.

A Small Happy Thing- My favorite restaurant has been closed since Covid. It's remote and very special, with a farm to table menu, family-style American fare & pre-Prohibition cocktails served in circa-1897 digs with period decor. I didn't think they would survive the pandemic. I checked their website on a whim and they are taking reservations. I booked a table for New Year's Eve. I know it's different in other parts of the country but we have been so locked down here. I'm so grateful this place still exists. I'm happy.